I just finished watching Meet Me After School (2018), the drama I thought it would be kinda light to watch yet it turned out so complex. I set myself not to take sides with certain characters, but use pov of the third one: I watch this to gain my perspective, not to be influenced. I did. At least I did I guess. I am satisfied at the end, it has good-complicated-dramatic-realistic storyline.
The main moral value I got from this drama: stay true to yourself. Even it's not yet, you have to stay true at the end.
Lying to others is bad, lying to own self is worse.
The problem is sometimes in life, we don't know whether it is right or it is wrong. In some cases we need to figure out carefully at the first place. We (at least myself) won't forever survive on lying. I did tell lie, I regret it so much till now. I got traumautized I guess, it had no good to remember in the future. The wrong feeling, the unusual body response are the proofs that what I lied is never be forgotten (at least by myself). Anyway in terms of figuring out certain things in life, everyone needs to take time. But if we think we have time in forever, that is totally wrong. I realize in life there is limited time, but not everyone knows when exactly it is. Everyday we are just trying for the best as we can.
Some mistakes is obviously a crime. Other mistakes are not, but they could be planned to be crime.
We have norma, the world has normality standard that everyone agrees with. We simply just have to follow it. Don't feel so special or acting like fighting for it alone cause the universe is not rotating over you. Never know about the future means we need to take a good care of present. If we just simply think today problem is own self's problem, we never know which one problem is going to involve our closed ones. Remember why you started. Remember where you started. Remember for whom you started. For now I could say that everything is started from the closest family; the house I always go home to, the people I have to take care first after myself. They never want us to worry, so they would be the place we can rely on. We never want them to worry as well, so do the best as you can. You have them, your back is safe. So don't worry too much about your future. Keep being hopeful and holding on it. Hang in there.
If "I love you" sounds not too genuine, take action instead.
You already know there are five love languages, put efforts for the best as you can to other people and yourself of course. Sometimes put yourself first doesn't always work. Sometimes put others' happiness first works on your happiness better. You name it, you know it when the best time for that. Kill them with kindness, kill your bad thoughts with kindness. Be gentle, at the end you just try and don't force the universe to always work as you wish. You are not the center of universe, aren't you? You are just dealing with it, so bear with it.
Staying true to yourself maybe means taking your time to find out your truest self for certain moment.
Sometimes it could be true, it could be false, but we just go for a try most of the time. Mistakes may add trauma, but please use the power your present self has to get through it. You may think you are not that powerful, but at least remember what is left for now. No matter it is, either responsibility, confidence, hope, trust, faith, or beloved ones, don't forget that you have Allah. Allah is always here and there near you, watching you. You have the most important things in life, consider them to give you more reasons to stay true to yourself.
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