What I Thought After Passing Out for The First Time
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| The railway next to the traditional market *anyway this photo was taken in 2016:)) |
This month, I passed out for the first time in my life. My very first time I could say. Well when I was at school I had ever felt not good a couple of times like I felt I would pass out but I didn't really pass out till my eyes closed and I lost consciousness. No. Then while I'm gonna be 20, I passed out in front of the fish stalls in the traditional market. Yes, that was true. But thank you for that incident, I realized some things I should take notes to remember. So here I am writing about it.
Maybe I passed out because I didn't have good sleep for nights, but I had to stand up for minutes waiting for fish was got ready. You know, my Indonesian fellas, I probably just passed out like the way I started to not feel good about my body and all of a sudden I became weak while standing up in the flag ceremony for about a half hour in the hot sunny morning.
Ah I miss my middle school a bit.
Once I woke up after passing out, I literally didn't remember anything. I felt like I just woke up after a long sleep. The last time that I remembered was I held on my mom's shoulder. Just it, there was no more. I even forgot whether I had told her that I felt I would pass out right away. What I remembered just before getting up from fainting was I heard about some stuff in english and at the same time I saw like a zoom in transition that reminded me with Elliot Choy's outro video style. Anyway for your information, he is currently my favorite youtuber, you guys should check out his channel.
When I woke up from fainting, I found my mom sitting on the ground next to me, some people gathered around me and saw me like I was a victim. Yes honestly a victim of having no sleep for the whole night. But seriously among those people there was a woman all of a sudden she asked me to drink a glass of hot tea. I don't even know a glass of hot tea is really the first aid cause its sweet contains some sucroses or whatnot that would increase my energy to wake up or that's just all Indonesian's habit everytime they find out the sick. But still, I felt better after drinking it, so thank you so much, a super kind woman on that day. She even didn't want that tea to be paid.
Good stranger is real (but being careful is a must).
On the way home, my mom was getting super protective since we were both on the motorcycle. We stopped in the roadside, my mom bought me a bowl of chicken noodle cause my mom worried that I would pass out one more time. She yelled at me about the way I couldn't take care of my health, yes I deserved it. At the same time she cared so much about me, yes I was blessed for it.
I'm blessed for all privileges I have all this time.
I felt I was useless at that time. I was really scared if I couldn't wake up after passing out. I really thought I had no power in real, but God gave me. God gave and gives me energy to wake up, nice people to take care of me for granted, chance for me to learn from my mistakes, time for me to stay alive longer, even slap to remind me about how precious moments in life is. I didn't wanna die, that was the thing coming up to my mind on that day I fainted. I wanna live longer, that's the thing I want to say much more.
After passing out for the first time in my life, I don't wanna get the next one. I wanna eat, sleep, wake up, accomplish tasks better. I wanna live in much better healthy life. I don't wanna say it only as the other bullshit. Cause I never know what is gonna happen next and I cannot depend on other people over and over. I should mentally, physically, financially stable for the sake of myself and people I wanna live longer with.
I don't want this to only be a content.
Let's do workout. Let's not skip breakfast. Let's not have brunch for an excuse to prevent obesity. Let's not procrastinate your to-do list in the name of slacker and badmood. Let's go to sleep and wake up earlier. Let's just do better way of living.
Let's execute it.
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