(suggest you) to read when you get bad insecurity
Thank you.
Thank you for existing. Thank you for still trying to live. Thank you for still breathing when sometimes it's not easy. Thank you for surviving all this time, keep it up. I'm so proud of you.
You're just trying to live well.
It's so normal for you want to live better, it means that you may want to learn and improve something that is lacking. You deserve goodness in this world. Yes, you're that precious. You're that worthy. Although world doesn't work as what human wants to, you still deserve goodness. If you are wondering how it could be, treat yourself well. Try to be good to yourself. Start with yourself.
You're not someone else. You are you, you are with all of strengths and flaws that perfect each of your imperfection.
You know, in life, there are many options, but sometimes it's not.
What you choose is different with people's, that's fine. People's success isn't your failure. Competition exists in life, but life is not all about competition. Life is also about accepting what it is and not giving up due to it right away. Life is also about how you have been doing through everything.
E v e r y t h i n g.
Yes, every single thing until this moment.
Feel yourself. Feel your emotion. Slow down.
As a human being, you are allowed to own your emotion. You're the owner, so you have a right to admit that it exists and you have obligation to take control of it, not to be controlled by it. Let it remind you that you are alive and see, you are alive at this moment, you are breathing in and breathing out. Feel the air going in and out of your body. It's good. It's enough.
Being able to be emotionally balanced is ongoing process. It's okay, it's part of living.
World can wait, but sometimes it can't.
World seems it can't wait you to heal, that's fine. We never know where reality is going to take each of us, don't we? Slow down. Stay true to yourself. Trust yourself that you will accomplish what you have to do. I trust you. I trust you can do it all.
Sometimes you know your path, but sometimes you don't.
You know what you should do, but if it's not yet, seek for help. Whatever it takes. It's okay to ask someone to tell you what went wrong, tell your trusted one(s) to comfort you, take a little sleep to rest your mind, or even go to see professional help. Anything. Anything is okay as long as you neither hurt yourself nor other people.
Once you know what you can do, do it one by one. Doing it tear by tear is okay. Take a baby step first is fine. Just do. Do it first, don't overthink it.
In the end, what are you looking for? You just want to be happy, right? You may have your own answer. But one thing, I always hope for your happiness wherever and whenever you are.
You're not alone. Along with this writing, I try to accompany you. And after the end of this sentence, you decide the rest, the way for you to go on living.
