Once I knew about slacker olympic was in 2020 I guess. I got to know about it at my first ever time watching Arpi Park's YouTube video, it is a video about some advices for college students. Arpi said that college student shouldn't play the slacker olympics. But watching it in my freshman year of college apparently didn't make me feel like I shouldn't get into slacker olympic after all. Cause basically I did, I got into it in a way.
So what is slacker olympic literally?
Once I did search on google, the top finding was about the definition of olympic slacker. So they said olympic slacker is:
An individual who, whether he or she knows it or not, displays great achievements in the slacker lifestyle. Extreme laziness, mild obesity, hygiene challenged, or combinations of all three are likely signs. Drugs and other special substances may or may not be related to the cause. It is more than likely that there not.
(urbandictionary.com)
Wow. Extreme.
At the first time I found it out, I didn't realize olympic slacker could be defined that extreme. Before that, I was just thinking I got into slacker olympic when I continuously became worse than the day before. I was olympic slacker once I did lower my standard when I shouldn't (like when I was supposed not to submit task late but I ended up doing it again and again).
What olympic? Yaa at least, olympic with my past self.
Well, definitely getting into slacker olympic or not, I think I shouldn't be a slacker for good. I'm worried if bad things I did may lead to the other worse ones. Cause I believe that they just connect and affect each other, like a domino.
Everytime I get myself as a slacker, I feel bad. Kinda self degradation, I was getting worse day by day. I was like "I could do it with this level of procrastination back then, so doing it one more time may not hurt". Well, I knew that kind of thought was not good to do continuously and exactly so annoying. Daily failures and mental breakdown due to it are also annoying.
Fast forward. Thanks to God, here I am, 2 years later.
Lately I have heard many people talking about competition with their own self. They said,
"Comparison not to other people but your own self."
"Me vs me."
For this time, I'm not 100% agree with that. My inner slacker got triggered. Calling it as a competition or olympic is already sounded like a pressure, at least for me. In my case, instead of being competitive to be a better version than myself today, taking it as a competition made me blame myself million times for doing something wrong just in several times.
I'm aware and 100% conscious that I should make a change. But a good change is much more difficult since in the start. I was even being a slacker just to get out of slacking off. So, actually in term of "me vs me", to think past self as an enemy to be defeated is tiring.
So many things to do for change, I told myself that it's okay to feel overwhelmed at first. The fact that I still have time and energy to go on life is basically a big chance, a big grace. The fact that I still want to improve myself is the thing I should be grateful for.
One by one. Day by day.
Looking back to myself back then, I'm kinda more grateful for letting all things happen no matter it's good or bad. How? Know my place and accept it.
As I grew older, I learned that the key to surviving the day isn't positivity, it's acceptance. Accepting that not all days are good and happy, you will have bad days, you make mistakes, you fail, you mess up, everything's not going to fall into place and that's okay.
-@alexdurog
So, for my future self and everyone who reads this post, I wish you will always figure out the best way to cooperate with yourself. Whether it takes as an olympic, a competition, or the other thing, it's your choice, and I wish you always be a good person like the way you are. For any kind of failure, I wish you will always find your way to overcome it because like being a slacker, it's not permanent if you really take effort. And your past self must be proud of every effort you put in to have better way of life.
Finally, break a leg!
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